One Year Later

July 29, 2022. One whole year to the day since my very first blog post and letting the world take a glimpse into our lives as we fight our battle with infertility. It has been so humbling and eye opening to hear countless stories from so many of you that have opened up and shared your own struggles with this unfair disease. This space has served as a healthy place where I can share our story and frustrations, but I also want it to be somewhere that my husband also feels comfortable sharing his perspective. Like I said in my last post, husbands are expected to be brave for us through this journey of infertility, but deserve to have their feelings validated and be consoled too.

I’ve asked Josh a few times over the past few months if he’d like to write something for me to share. So today, on the one year anniversary of starting this blog, he sat down and started typing. I expected to read something about how unfair infertility is, or feelings of frustration, similar to the handful of rampages and rabbit holes I’ve gone down over the past year; something that would open up a platform for his feelings to be validated, a place where he could be consoled.

Instead, he wrote the most selfless words, graciously pouring out his sympathy and prayers for others, including me, into the universe. I guess that is how God intended husbands to be, caring for their wives in sickness and in health, and boy has he outdone himself so far these past 4 years. As I read his words my eyes filled with tears, as I was reminded of exactly what matters in life, just how lucky I am, and how much God has already blessed our lives together🤍

“As y’all know my wife Natasha has been blogging about our fertility journey for a year today, but as you might also know our journey has been much longer than that. From our first miscarriage to our last failed IVF transfer just a few months ago has been a whirlwind of emotions. 

Everyone in this world goes through problems/issues in their life, and I think the only thing that makes some problems tolerable is who is in your corner during those tough times. This journey could easily have hurt our relationship, but it has actually made our relationship even stronger and I am extremely grateful for that. The strength that Natasha displays during this process is remarkable, and I am so proud of her every single day. 

I know many people out there are going through similar situations, and we always want you to know that we are praying for all of you. At the same time, we are also praying for everyone not going through fertility issues. One of the toughest parts of this journey is seeing people close to us struggle to tell us they are pregnant. Until the day comes we will always wonder when our turn will be, but we are still very happy for everyone in our lives that has been blessed to have children. 

Those who know Natasha know she will make an incredible Mom, and I can’t wait to hear our kids call her Mommy someday. We will keep fighting no matter how long it takes to become parents, and I am so proud to have an amazing woman by my side during this process.” 

Just wow🙏🏻 I tend to hold things in for a while, until I can’t take it anymore and then lose my shit about the simplest thing. Josh, on the other hand, is always so positive and could care less if we leave those dishes in the sink overnight, if the laundry basket is overflowing, or if Tango’s toys are scattered all over the floor. If you don’t know him, reading his words above couldn’t be a clearer picture of his values and what matters most in life.

As we turn the corner on 3.5 years, headed for 4, of our infertility journey, my goal is to strive to stress less about the small things, and live more in the moment and enjoy this life we get to do every day together. I really lucked out when God brought Josh into my life, and I am so thankful to Him to have such an amazing, caring husband, who I know will be by my side through the end of our days.

Cheers to 1 whole year of this community 🥂 Thank YOU for following along, and allowing me to share our story with you all. Here’s to hoping this next year brings us our rainbow after such a long stormy season 🌈