Infertility is wanting Aunt Flo to show up. Literally. Wishing for bloating, cramps, blood and tampons so you can email your doctor or nurse to call in your prescription for the next round of meds.
Infertility is waiting for your nurse to email your cycle calendar so you can plan when/if you can go on that girls trip to the mountains.
Infertility is peeing on so many sticks and hoping for that solid smiley face to give you the okay to give it your best shot!
Infertility is not having sex. Sex is now a job you report for 1 to 2 times (tops) per month and saving all those swimmers for the exact, perfect SECOND of the month; the only time you can actually, possibly get pregnant.
Infertility is waiting for phone calls to start medications.
Infertility is waiting for hcg beta results to find out if you are still pregnant.
Infertility is sitting in the emergency room; receiving test results on your phone, and waiting for the doctor to come in to explain what they mean and what will happen next.
Infertility is waiting 3 days to go back for a re-check of hcg levels to see if your embryo transfer was successful.
Infertility is counting ahead on your calendar app and thinking, “if it works this time we’d be due in June.”
Infertility is waiting 8 hours (and counting) for your FET nurse to email you back on Tuesday from your email on Friday because Monday is her day off. Literally checking your email every 10 minutes starting at 7am. [Edit: ended up being 12 hours, wanted me to start medication the next morning at 7am, but it needed to be ordered online and shipped]
Infertility is waiting for “pre-surgery protocol COVID test results” to determine if you can have potentially LIFE SAVING SURGERY to remove an ectopic pregnancy.
Infertility: The Silent Struggle 
Infertility is:
-praying multiple times each day that your child’s IUI will be successful
– praying for ever person in the world who’s going through this journey
-Hoping that a lunch date will be a pregnancy announcement
-buying good luck charms or making wishes at 11:11
– trying to be strong and positive but crying in the shower because you hate that your child is struggling to conceive
– asking yourself “ is it my fault, did I pass this condition to my child somehow
-saying the wrong thing because you don’t know what to say
-being angry because your the mom and it’s your job to fix everything
– watching your child hurt when receiving the news that a friend or family member is pregnant
Infertility SUCKS.
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So many hugs to you! Infertility affects SO many, not just the couples directly experiencing it. Thank you for sharing Terry❤️ I am sure so many parents can relate🙏🏻
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Thank you so much for sharing your journey. Joe & I can (unfortunately) relate to this on so many levels… every word resonated. While we did not go as far as IVF (because mentally I was drained), the failed IUIs, ectopic pregnancy, medications, etc are all part of our story too. It definitely helps having others who understand that hurt and frustration and are with you on this journey. It sucks and sometimes there are no answers as to why (which sucks even more).
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such a true and raw outlook at what infertility feels like. With you sister…thinking of you!
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