A Storm’s a Brewin’

Saturday 4.20.19

Our friends headed out early this morning for the airport. It was so great seeing them.. We’re going to Josh’s parents tonight for dinner and Josh wants to tell his family we’re pregnant. We’ve gone rounds about waiting to tell our families and it being too early, what if something happens? Couples lose their pregnancies early on all the time! Praying this isn’t the case for us, but you never know and that would just create more heartache if we then have to tell THAT news to everyone.

Before heading to pick up my car, we got in a quick sesh on the couch. It’s weird having sex while you’re pregnant, it’s hard to explain; but definitely new territory. I know you can’t poke the baby out of there but it’s a little unnerving!

We picked up my car, and I needed to pee so bad! I went to the bathroom before we headed to his parents, and felt like I was punched straight in the face. I wiped and there was blood. What does this mean? Does this happen after sex when you’re pregnant? Surely this isn’t good, it’s BRIGHT red! So terrified and scared, but maybe it will stop. I don’t say anything to Josh.

We get to his parents and the entire family is there. We’re all standing around the island in the kitchen, and Josh just says it… “Well…. We’re pregnant!” We didn’t exactly talk about this or how we’d share the news, but I was just waiting for him to spill the beans while we were all standing there. 

As you can expect, everyone was SO excited! There were hugs and tears and more hugs! I was so excited but deep down inside terrified and wondering why my body was trying to reject the baby. I mean that has to be what is happening right? Why would I be bleeding if I’m pregnant? I have had friends that have bled during their pregnancy, but more of a brownish flow, not bright red.

The whole night is such a struggle. Everyone saying “they can’t believe it” and how they’re “so excited for us”. Each time I went to the bathroom that night, the spotting continued with every wipe. I hadn’t told Josh yet, but I have to at some point right?